Aug 8, 2012

Night Swimming


So I have been waking up at the same time every night.  Just call me Ronald Defeo.  No I am not having crazy thoughts of mass murder.  Thank god right!

It started a month ago, around the same time that my dad went into surgery. Gah, my dad....my parents in general. I have so much anxiety surrounding those two. There are just a lot of things going on that make me stressed out for them, even though I shouldn't feel that way. It's just life stuff.  Stuff that they can handle as they have been through way worse and are the wisest people I know when it comes to life shit. But somewhere along this ride I feel like I have turned into the parent.  Not because they aren't taking care of themselves or anything like that, but I tend to worry about them a lot. I am guessing this is normal? I mean, as normal as stuff like this can get?

Who knew that all the worrying would be turned back on you? Is this the payback we get for making them worry about us?

Anyway, I have been waking up at 3:30AM and then again at 5:30AM EVERY NIGHT.  I wish I was joking and/ or exaggerating. So my initial thoughts were that it was just anxiety. Even though I don't feel super anxious throughout my day, I KNOW that that shit wreaks havoc on your mind while asleep. But then I came across this:

http://www.holisticbynature.com.au/?p=62
It is a Chinese medicine Meridian clock.  And if you look at the times I am waking up each night, it's because I have to take a leak.  

Cool.

True though.  I DO need to empty my overflowing bladder when I wake up.  I just don't.  I hold it and squinch my eyes shut and try to get back to sleep.  No more, no more.  I WILL get up and use the washroom like a normal human being. Or I will cut down on my water intake.  I tend to drink between 10-12 cups a day. It does coincide with when I upped my intake!

I will keep you all updated on the piss situation. Hopefully cutting back solves it!

In other news, I am tired. Bet you didn't know THAT little tidbit.
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